So while looking at the about me section on my Facebook profile, I saw I still had a link up to my Blog. I have been reading through old posts that I had written as a 23 and 24 year old. Wow, I wish I would have kept this up, it's a window into my past. The writing is terrible and the topics I chose to write about are immature, but damn did it give me a peak into what I was thinking and feeling. I think I should keep this up as a little journal, so it becomes more of a time capsule. All the things that were bothering me in that time frame have all been resolved.

The boyfriend I mention in my last post from 2008, I have since married and have been with for 8.5 years. Looking back on what I wrote about him, he is definitely a rad guy and so happy that I ended up with him. Can't believe I was with him only 7 months on my last blog post. The new doggy, Jake I just got is now 8 years old. My time has flown! I never did get him the cat as a playmate. Turns out, he hates cats. He finally does have a friend, her name is Lola, she just turned one. She's a huge mostly black lab, with a sliver of poodle mix. She's a sweetheart. I love my doggies, they bring so much joy and happiness to my life.

Since I last wrote here, I quit Abercrombie and Fitch and had started working at DeVry University as an admissions adviser. I worked there for 4 years, at the Bellevue, and Federal Way Campuses in WA. My last 2 years I worked there, I had transferred down to the Portland, OR campus. I HATED working for DeVry. My then BF got a promotion and had asked me to leave Tacoma, and move to PDX with him. We got engaged there and married on Sept. 2, 2012. We were married at the Tacoma Union Station in down town Tacoma. We had an amazing apartment in the Alphabet District of PDX. We loved living there and thought that's where we would settle, but there was another move on the horizon. Within a few months of being married we found out we were moving again, because of my now husbands promotion.

We moved to Boise, ID, in December of 2012. Of all the places I thought I would be, I didn't expect this place and I didn't expect to love it so much here. Reading through my old posts, I had forgotten how upset I was that I was being left behind in Tacoma by so many. Even though I did have many friends leave the area, I had made new friends and went up to Seattle to visit my college friends very regularly. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I ended up being very sad when I had to leave Tacoma for PDX. Two days after I left, my good friend Laura moved from Phoenix back to Tacoma, since that time, it seems like many of my high school friends returned to the Gig Harbor/Tacoma area. Now when I go home to visit, most of my friends live there. I'm now the weirdo that lives out of state.

Reading even deeper into my blog posts, I found that I mentioned a lot of friends names often. I was worried I would never see many of them again and wondered if my paths would cross with them. Oddly enough, my paths with many of the people I have mentioned have crossed again. Some very randomly. One of the best examples of this is when I moved here to Boise. I had written that I had gone out with my friend Kjirsten and was worried I wouldn't see her ever again. In one of those crazy things that happen in life, she had moved home to Boise a few years prior to me moving here. We reconnected in January of 2013 and have picked up exactly where we left off. It's crazy and blows my mind! I'm so thankful for this and am really in awe how these things happen now. She has made this move to Idaho the best it could have been. I have also crossed paths with my friends who had moved to PDX when I lived there,  I'm still friends with Megs, Nicole, BJ, Laura, Tom, and Jane. I see my other friends throughout the years at people's weddings and my own. It's absolutely amazing. Since moving to Boise, I now work at the Office of the State Board of Education for Idaho. I love working here! It's one of the best jobs I've ever had. Well I think that's all I'm going to write for now.

the wind is a blowing, I feel a change coming on

Well, I have moved again! I no longer live with Jozie, thank GOD! I now have an apartment all to myself. Well I share it with a nice choc lab named jake. Sometimes my boyfriend comes over and spends the night. Its pretty sweet. I also recently got my masters degree in education counseling! It feels wonderful to be done. Two years and I'm finally finished! Hizah! I'm not really sure if anyone even reads my blogs anymore. I havent posted in over a year. I've gotten very very lazy about posting blogs. Well I have been super busy, I've been working full time, going to class 3 nights a week and doing an internship twice a week. I cant believe I did it! I started to burn out there towards the end. I wish I could have been blogging the whole time while Jozie and I were having a falling out. The dirt ran deep. Maybe I'll post about that much later. Right now I'm looking for new jobs in a school setting, so I can quit Abercrombie and Fitch. Even though I like my new store, I still want to be outta retail. Well I'll post soon. I'm thinking about getting a kitty so my dog will have friend. So much stuff has happenend. I will try and keep up with the posting!

Wow Long time and no posting

So its been a very very very long time since I've posted anything. I've been super busy! I will start posting agian regularly. I'm not sure if anyone even still reads this thing, but maybe that will be good, so I can share more private things on here. I will have an outlet for frustrations! Well Today I'm going to a friends wedding. My awesome boyfriend is in the wedding so it should be fun. I've now been together with Eric for almost 7 months. Its the best relationship I've been in thus far. We have so much in common that its fun and then were different enough where it keeps it interesting. Wel l I should start getting ready for this wedding and not typing, but more to come I promise!

Moved again

Hey All I moved to down town Tacoma near stadium high. I live in a sweet apartment with Jozie on Broadway! House warming party soon! ITs so swank and cool. THough I miss living with AMy Im still close by. Grad school is fun but it keeps me very busy. I dont want summer to end and back to gross weather. It makes me sad! U people need to call me up!

SO moved on...

I moved! I moved back to N Tacoma for the summer. I'm subletting for Meggie. I love it! I'm back where everything is. It takes me the same amount of time to get to work, because I hit 3 stop lights instead of 10 plus 2 train tracks, and its all freeway driving now. I love being near night life, and friends again. I've been having so much fun since I've moved. We've had BBQ's and get togethers. My house mates are rad. we walked down to the 4th of july. And the Swiss guy and I got wasted. I love summer too! I wish I didnt have to move in 2 months. The only prob is my car got egged this morning. Sad I ruined some of my paint. Oh well. I'm so much happier here though than in fife. I love being able to walk home from the ram, though its a long walk its still better then driving to fife.

Times they are a changing...again...

This month started off with a bang! Katie's 22nd bday on cinco de mayo was awesome... A few days later though I had to say goodbye to a really good friend... Zach Crofton aka asain zach moved to oregon, I miss him tons... THough his parting wasnt as hard as it should have been, I was so excited because Matt was coming the next day from Denver! we hadnt seen eachother for 6 months and I had missed him so much... That week was a whirlwhin.... We hung out on the couch watching movies a lot, drinking more than I have in a long time... hehehehe... On tue we went to a Mariners game against Tampa and we WON! Spending time in seattle was a blast...We also made a trip of to Vancouver BC which was fun though I started a dranken spat... For the most part we had a blast together, accept on sunday when I had to go to work, and I woke up an hour late and was still drunk.... I got my hang over at work... Needless to say I have no idea what I said at orientation... The new kids most be thinking God thats our manager???? I still had vomit in my hair! Matt came to pick up and we went and got stain remover for the red stain that ended up on my carpet.... Waistbasket is red... Sunday night was difficult because I started getting upset early that he was leavign the next day... Mon you guessed it I went on a crying jag, and probably annoyed the shit outta matt... boys dont like it when u cry for 3 hours that they're leaving when they havent left yet.... But luckily he had prepared for that... We had spent a really fun time together that week, and to pack 6 months of not seeing eachother into one week is hard.... Especially when you do have a good time and enjoy his company... Goodbyes are really really tough for me... Plus I was sick from the first day he got there, and I am still sick today... I felt like it would have been more fun if i wasnt coughing up green stuff and not being able to sleep all week. I know he had a good time too, but he was excited to get back to his life in Denver, and start a new job... I was mostly upset because I dont know when I'll see him again... I could quite possibly never see him again... I think thats what got me so upset that whole day... We had spent an amazing week together and i want to be around him and now I dont know when that will happen or ever happen again... Whats ment to be will happen though and I'll just have to let it go... Hearing his voice over the phone or texting eachother simply does not replace real contact... But I have realized with what ever happens I want him to be happy and if I would have just listened to what he was saying about how we have no control over the future and just enjoy the time we have together now I would have stopped crying and just enjoyed being with him for those last few hours... The lesson was learned and used later on in the week...

Thur Megs and I went out for our last night together for a few months... She's going back to Alaska and then to germany for the summer... Lucky for me she's a super senior and is comign back in the fall... We went to E9 and ran into casey, rocky and theyre friend jeff, we ended up taking shots and drinking a lot... I hadnt eatin all day I'm pretty sick and have had purple and white dots on the back of my throat since tue... So I get drunk enough to chock down pizza so they're something in my tummy... Drunk off of three drinks mind u... Drinking the week before and tryiing to keep up with matty like I used showed me tolerance is down... So we decided to walk up to chop sticks where I run into becky and lissa which reminded me theres still going to be friends here too if i just call them... Its ladies night at chopsticks drinks are hella cheap so casey starts throwign down 100 dollar bills and saying go order rounds of drinks because u guys get them cheaper... We are wasted by the time we get back to megs house, we eat crackers and talk for an hour with the boys... Megs had stolen the 1 ball from sigma nu so then i decide for some reason that i should have it so now i have the one ball from sigma nu sitting on my window sill... I dont even know anyone in that house anymore... (THough I did run into a kid named carson last night while haning with Kjirsten so maybe ill give it to him... ) So I get home with only 4 hours to sleep before work... Have an amazing day at work... get off late and have to go take megs to the airport... She's not done packing and running around frantically at 7pm her flights at 930... We still had to drop off her car at the storage unit. We finally drop her off at the airport at 830. Though I was getting really sad and wanting to bust out in the same type of tears I cried on matts last day I held them off... Giving her a hug goodbye i felt them rising and dropping her off in the same spot that i had to leave matt at was crushing me... As soon as I pulled out i tried not to let them come up... and i didnt the whole car ride until I got home then i was a sob story... But atleast i didnt ruin the last hour i had with her... We talked like normal... I'll most likely be subletting her room for the summer by UPS... Then I started crying because I realized most of my friends are scattering they're moving on to new cities and new lives and im here still going back to UPS for grad school... why did i only apply to two grads schools? what was i afraid of? I should have applied to schools all around the west coast! I could be starting over someplace new too... though i had very little time to actually apply any where... I started talking to asain zach online... He put things in perspective for me... Then Kjirsten called and wanted to hang out because this is here last week here... so I went out to magoos with her and her bf aaron. We ran into kids who are now going to be seniors but were sophs when i was a senior and that made me feel old. They were on a 21 bday run... that made me feel even older... We just sipped on our beers and watched them get fucked up... Then we went to a new place that just opened on 6th and union called ferallis and had pizza and watched the kids get wasted some more... Ended up talking to a kid named carson for a long time... Then Kjirsten was tired so we went home early on a friday night... I was bummed but had only had 4 hours of sleep the night before so i was excited to sleep. We may go out tonight and hopefully mira comes out tooo I miss her and havent seen her forever, she was really busy this past semester with her new bf two jobs, school and gphi... so hopefully ill get to say goodbye to her...

Caro's coming this wed though... I'm totally stoked for that... The only problem is I have to pack my apartment up and move! I should really start doing that.... but since im a chronic procrastinatior i wont... Plus i need to know if im moving into meg's house for the summer or not first, i probably will be moving in june 1... but if not im moving home to the harbor YUCK! no i dont wanna live with my parents again im almost 24... plus i need to find a new job this one sucks and im done with it... But i must pay the bills... I'm sooo stoked for her to come though... I havent seen her in a year! I cant believe its been that long... But i know its only for a week and then she'll be gone again... I was talking with her last ngiht and she was like why dont u move here with me... Let me tell ya i'm thinking about it... even though im sad here and want to start over its still hard to give up the place where u grew up and love so much... filled with the right people this place is amazing... but those people are gone even my highschool friends who im close to have scattered for the most part and the ones who havent seem to be reliving past glories... I dont want to do that i want to create new ones... I really want to go to grad school though thats super important to me... I can still go to seattle u in the winter if i want... Or I could look at transfereing to another school someplace else... That has me excited... So i think i'll spend fall semester here goign to ups... Which has already proved difficult, the class im taking is in a class room i had my senior year... I look out the windows and it puts me back to that time... I think about gphi and how much fun i had with that... All the friends i made who are no longer there, the two guys really special guys i met there and how we met... The people i still expect to see on campus, i feel they're ghosts everywhere... I dont think i can concentrate when i have feelings like that happening... So what i maybe doing is hacking it out for one more semester... Then transfering... I think i'll probably do it where i know someone. Like AZ and living with bj, or san fran and live with caro... Seattle or san diego... some place.... different... a new begining because reliving old new begining is hurting too much... Well i guess this is a long post... i havent posted in a long time, and strangely this helped me vent and i feel a little better... To all those I love, care about, and who are special to me i hold u dear and close in my heart... Even though i may not call enough or keep in good contact like i should know that i am thinking about u.... Now off to start my day off, i wish i was over this cold soo i can go back to working out...

A feeling of ack

Work has been well... I found out that I will most likely be getting into UPS. Seattle U is a no go unless I want to wait till winter. The person writing my last letter of rec didnt get it done in time. SO they will not consider me for fall. I may go to ups and then transfer. Jozie and I will be tacking on an extra month or so. Disapointed I will not be moving to seattle. I need to get out of this city oh sooo badly. I feel strangled here, and I cant breathe. Most of my really good freinds have left, or are so busy with work or school they have no time. Plus other friends are going to be moving within the next few months. I want to move to seattle and start over but its not going to happen right now. I cant wait to start grad school though, and two awesome people are coming to visit in may so thats super exciting! Sometimes i wish i would have just moved to AZ to live with bj. There's so many people I miss all the time... Tom, BJ, Laura, Carolyn, O'Rear, MJ, Asian Zach because he's moving to Yerka, Becky because I hardly see her along with Lissa, I dont get to see Megs, Mira or Kjirsten that much, Jason just got engaged and I havent seen him since he introduced me to his gf, Rachel and I make plans all the time but I only get to see her once a month which isnt nearly enough, and brandon and kyle now that i dont work with them i dont see them. I love u all and I hope u know how much u mean to me! I hope all of lifes roads lead us down a good path, and someday they will cross many times... After writing this I feel better... I think I'm going to go play catch with some of my guy friends now! I love u all enjoy the sun....